My good friends keep pushing me to do this because it is time.

I have dreams to build a lot of stuff, but first, I want to build a center for children who were sexually abused to help ensure they have space to work through whatever issues arise from the traumatic energy and their ancestral trauma expression, so they never become their worst nightmares. My dissertation data thoroughly demonstrated that we fail to make sure children get the stigma-free care that enables them to become healthy functioning, non-offending adults. It is possible, and really not that hard.

My first goal would be to raise enough money to incorporate a non-profit so the real work can begin. Then as fundraising allows, we will buy a decommissioned army reserve center, hospital, school, or motel. I would need a million dollars to secure a property and get it in good working order. The most important and deciding feature of the facility we choose would be that it is secluded in nature so our guests can work in peace.

I would like to start fundraising and remodeling now, so by the time I complete my practicum, internship, post-doc, testing, and licensure we can get to work right away. It would be incredibly healing for me to work on preparing the facilities as I finish my training. It would help fuel me to finish.

When I first told an old friend about my dreams, she told me I would definitely accomplish it, before I graduated even. And I laughed saying I needed to focus on one thing at a time. Then she laughed at me and asked me "have you met yourself?" Sitting here today, I'm hoping she was right and that I can get this all organized to be ready when my training is.

Now that the details about what I want to do are known, I want to share more about myself and why I have such big dreams.

 I am a practitioner with lived experience so I can see more than those who have not traversed the depths I have. I am currently working on new modalities that address multiple issues in tandem so we can be more sure than with the current system, that our children will come out well-rounded, not just with the skills to control their emotions or remove their worst triggers. My goal is to create a wraparound system that can support all of the responses happening in the body after trauma, eventually to include in-house doctors who specialize in the prevention of autoimmune disorders that arise out of chronic stress from stored traumatic energy. 

I want to create a system where those who have suffered have their needs met in as thorough of a way as possible so they do not have to continue to carry their traumas for the rest of their lives.

We are going to change the course of human evolution. I hope you choose to join us.

I am not going to sugar coat this because I believe in a healthy dose of pragmatism. This is going to be hard, and is going to take years to build all of this. I get that. I am ready for it. I will take it all as it comes and build whatever I can, where I can, for as long as I can. I have done incredible things and am ready to do more now.

We’re aiming for a million dollars. I know that is a big ask, but when you think about it from the worldview I hold, seeing the whole system, you know that the (very underestimated, excludes all other costs) lifetime cost of the care for a single rape victim is over $125K. We can’t keep letting that multiply, and our society’s current system does just that.

I am in this for the prevention of the creation of new victims. That is and always will be my highest aim because those are humans. The reason that I think I will be successful is because I am willing to talk about the costs so people have to stop and witness the system. In 2018 John Hopkins reported that one year worth of care for childhood sexual abuse was over $9 billion. that number is staggering but we just keep letting it happen, doing the same things we know don’t work. We all know in our hearts that it is wrong.

Right now I am asking for mutual aid in the amount equivalent to just 8 lifetimes worth of medical care if it were to go through the traditional models we already use. In the grand scheme of things, that’s nothing.